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Thursday, May 17, 2018

Pumping & Nursing Schedule Working Mom Breastfeeding 2 Month Old

This is our general schedule during the work week. I still nurse on demand, so the at-home times can vary, but my at-work schedule is very solid.

On Thursdays and Fridays, my husband drops the kids off at grandma's. He leaves at 5:15 am.

2:00 am - nurse
4:45 am - wake the baby to nurse
6:00 am - pump at home
7:00 am - arrive at work
8:30 am - pump at work
11:30 am - pump at work
2:30 pm - pump at work
4:00 pm - off work
5:00 pm - nurse
7:00 pm - nurse
Sometimes he sleeps until 2:00 am, sometimes he nurses again anywhere between 9:00 pm-midnight. Sometimes he nurses every hour from 5:00-9:00 pm, but everything else is pretty constant for my workday. Pumping sessions might move 30 min either way depending on how the workday is going.

On Mondays and Tuesdays, I drop the kids off at grandma's. I leave the house at 6:30 am. The only thing that changes are the 4:45 and 6:00 am feeding/pumping session. I don't pump on days I get the boys ready.

2:00 am - nurse
6:00 am - wake the baby to nurse
7:00 am - arrive at work
8:30 am - pump
11:30 am - pump
2:30 pm - pump
4:00 pm - off work
5:00 pm - nurse
7:00 pm - nurse

I hope this was helpful.


Tuesday, May 15, 2018

Working Mom Back to Work Day #2

Morning of day 2 back to work. Sorry it's so blurry!

This is the morning of my second day back to work. Both mornings have gone sooo much smoother than I was imagining. I thought for sure we would be late, both kids would cry all morning, nothing would go right, and I'd leave the grandma's breathing a huge sigh of relief I didn't have to deal with that all day!

But the mornings were great. I got Calvin ready first and Eren nursed well and was very pleasant while I packed everything up to leave. Justin even got to say good-bye to Cal both mornings because we were up so early to get ready. (Usually Justin leaves before Calvin is up) Last night, Eren even slept six hours straight, which was really nice because Sunday night Calvin was up at midnight with a bad dream and Eren woke up soon after we got Cal back down. Oh, the joys of motherhood. It's all about mastering how to function on so little sleep. 

I got to run by the store Monday after work and that was nice. Run in, run out, easy peasy.

One thing I do not miss is pumping at work. Three times per day, eating my lunch hunched over the pumping parts attached to my chest. That tingly feeling when you know you need to go pump but you're busy finishing other work. Worrying about how much you're producing and if the grandmas are overfeeding little mister. Motherhood is full of worry, no matter if you're with the kids all day or not.

I imagined this transition back to work like I was abandoning my babies for two years. Like I wouldn't see them again and they would be so big by then. (We plan for me to be a stay at home mom in a couple years) To imagine that my little Eren will be Calvin's age by the time I get to spend each and every day with them again breaks my little heart! I know the time will fly. It already has been going so fast. I can't believe Calvin will be TWO this Memorial Day weekend!

I didn't have a breakdown. I didn't cry. But I definitely was not overjoyed to leave them. I know they're in good hands, of course. I know the grandmas want to spend time with them and love on them too. And on the inside, even though I didn't want to admit it, I needed a break.

I am so fortunate to have Wednesdays off from my job. Only working four days a week is awesome and I would absolutely recommend to anyone facing working mom guilt to try and cut back at work if at all possible. I very truly believe it has helped me stay sane and not feel too strained and stretched thin. (I've had Wednesdays off since I returned to work after Calvin was born, except for last summer when I worked five days, which sucked super bad and almost threw me over the edge. You can read my mom guilt post that I wrote at the end of that summer here). The day off gives me the opportunity to keep up on the house a little, do diaper laundry (and all the other stupid laundry), and get to spend time with my littles. I get to spend a full day each week pretending I'm a stay at home mommy. That's truly how I view those days off. I just can't wait to be home with them all the time.

So although this is just week one of about 90 until I get to be with my babies all the time, I know we all need it on some level. They need to spend time with the grandmas to get to know and love them. The grandmas need it because grandmas just love grandbabies. And I need to feel like I'm contributing to the household in a financial sense and I guess you could say I do need a break from the munchkins sometimes too, even if I don't like to say that.

I hope things continue going smoothly and I hope this stupid working mom guilt starts to subside. Here's hoping it's just a first week back thing and it doesn't last too long.

Thanks for reading.

Thursday, May 3, 2018

MIA Mom of 2

Well, I sure have been MIA, haven't I?

Life with a newborn and a toddler is crazy, let me tell you. Anytime you want to do anything at all, it takes a lot of planning ahead and extra time factored in for poopy butts and toddler meltdowns.

I am so in love with my little family. Seeing how Calvin loves on his baby brother is seriously the most adorable thing I've ever seen. It melts my little heart to see him giving kisses or randomly asking to hold him.

But it's hard work. I don't even know when the last time I wore makeup was. And whenever it was, I can almost guarantee it was not applied first thing in the morning, it was probably closer to nap time, after noon.

I head back to work here shortly and it's very bittersweet. I don't want to leave my babies. I have grown accustomed to spending every single day with them. We have a routine, even if it's not exactly what organized people would call a "routine." It's very hectic. And I want to continue that. I don't want to miss out on anything. These last seven weeks have absolutely flown by. Way faster than they did with my first son. Eren is growing every day. Calvin is too. He is just so grown up. Looking at him compared to his tiny little brother, it's absolutely stunning to remember him being that tiny just two short years ago. Two years! Time really does fly.

So although I don't want to leave my babies and I desire so much in my heart to never return to work and stay with them forever, I know I should get back out there. I look forward to being able to stop by the grocery store on the way home from work and shop all by myself instead of packing up the boys and towing them around with me while I pick up a handful of things. I look forward to dropping them off at the grandma's in the morning and not having to worry about them for 9 hours. On the mornings when everyone is crying and nothing is going right, I will breathe a sigh of relief to drop them off and get in my car to head to work alone.

I am jealous of stay at home moms who get to spend every day with their babies. But at the same time, I understand just how demanding it is. And so here we go, back to work, back to working mom life, but with two littles to constantly think about. Back to pumping at work (which I am so not looking forward to), back to sleepless nights that end with an alarm clock sounding, back to a different kind of exhaustion. I hope I can make it. :/


Saturday, March 24, 2018

He's Here! Eren Michael 3/17/18

one week old

Eren Michael
March 17, 2018
7:17 am
8 lbs 5 oz
21 inches

Labor & Delivery Story Video HERE

We're in love!